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INCOMING ART:

:iconc-r-y-s: - Zerro and Suriyawong/ Fullbody, Colored
Commissioned: March 13th, 2013
Status: Paid; Waiting...

:iconhaihovothan: - Valencia w/ BG
Commissioned: May 26th, 2013
Status: Paid; Waiting...

:iconm-o-c-h-a: Suriyawong/ Pixel
Commissioned: May 25th, 2013
Status: Paid; Waiting...

:iconoverlordjc: - Tactical Zerro and Suriyawong/ Full-body, Colored
Commissioned: August 29, 2013
Status: Paid, Waiting...

More to come and, hopefully, more to remove from this list. I've been waiting on several of these commissions for over 3 months now.

The Finish Line

A list of my latest completted commissions for future records.

:iconnekora907:
Commissioned: June 3rd, 2013
Received: July 28th, 2913
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:iconshibird:
Commissioned: June 3rd, 2013
Received: July 28th, 2013
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:iconmieuchan: - Suriyawong/ Fullbody Pixel
Commissioned: July 11th, 2013
Received: July 29th, 2013
Suriyawong by MieuChan

:iconsabviee: - Kaciana, Valencia, Haliwyn, Vitani/ Full-body, Colored
Commissioned: August 3rd, 2013
Recieved: 1. (09AUG13) fav.me/d6hd53e 2. (11AUG13) fav.me/d6hm3b8
3. (22AUG13) fav.me/d6jbwo7 4. (25AUG13) fav.me/d6jr6ek

:iconmzzazn: Anime headshot of Umbra
Commissioned:September 2nd, 2013
Received: September 4th, 2013
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:iconjanirotluvx: Umbra and Moana/ Fullbody, Colored, No BG
Commissioned: July 23rd, 2013
Recieved: September 10th, 2013
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:iconorichie: - Haliwyn and Fali (seperate)/ Headshot, Colored
Commissioned: June 30th, 2013
Recieved: September 12th, 2013
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:iconcookiehana: - Valencia
Won Raffle to Commission: May 18th, 2013
Recieved: September 12th, 2013
CM:: Zerro by CookieHana

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If a tree falls down in the forest and there's not a single creature around, does it make a sound?
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EDIT: Fore Warning Oi, this is just another journal about me and my ex. If you don't give a fuck about me (it's understandable if you don't so don't feel that you HAVE to read this now that I've called attention to the fact), or if you're bored with a 26 year-old griping over high school grade issues, please ignore this one.




My ex decided to contact me today after a month of silence. This marks the second time she's done this. I can't be certain, but I think this is some twisted, fucked up game she's playing with me. A month is just long enough for someone to start getting over something, you know? Like, if you saw a murder, you'd be traumatized for weeks, maybe the rest of your life but, the initial shock would probably dissolve within 30 days. Or maybe I'm just grasping at straws so as to explain the particular way I'm feeling. I'm not a psychologist, after all.

Anyways, I've still been a sloppy mess about everything. I don't get joy out of life anymore. I only see the dull gray of the world. The moments of happiness I have now are fewer and farther between and, because of such, I often over-exaggerate them to make them last a bit longer. I'm constantly having to find a way to distract myself too. Every time I have a spare moment with no project or task, I end up thinking about... well, her. Then I get depressed again.

i'm pretty pathetic, right?

I don't know if it how I was raised or if I just wanted to believe the fantasies and myths about love, but regardless, I really gave my whole heart to that girl. *sigh* I'm not very mature when it comes to things like this. "When you say you love someone, you mean it." Pretty naive thinking. The word love doesn't really have a place in this world; not in its original content anyways.

So, anyways, back to the topic on hand. So after a month of nothing, she sends me a Skype message. "mmm hello"

I cannot expressed how very angry that made me. I gave this girl my love, hopes, dreams and trust and here she is, after not a word for a month, she so casually greets me. As if I'm a damn toy that can be played with then stuffed away somewhere, out of the way for a month till she gets bored and decides to play with me once again.

Thinking back, maybe I overreacted to all of this, but honestly I'm just tired of all this. I'd have to imagine that my ex isn't completely oblivious to the way I feel about her; I've told her, oh, so many times, after all. So, every if she only had an inkling of the emotional struggle she puts me through, she would have to be able to surmise that playing this little of "Red Light, Green Light" is really screwin' with me. And if she knows that, then she MUST be doing this intentionally to hurt me. There's no other logical explanation for it. SHE broke up with ME, after all. After all the begging and pleading. If there was more I could have done to get her to reconsider, I don't know of it.

So, this brings me to my question: What the fuck does this sadistic bitch want with me?!

I'm so... tired. She's evil. Made me feel something, made me depend on her then took it all away. And now, when I start to see the light at the end of the tunnel, she pulls me back into the darkness. And for what? Just to leave me alone in my misery till I finally start to recover again?


You know, when I first met her, my ex said she was contemplating suicide. So, I did what I thought any other decent man would do, I decided to love her. At first, yes, it was to keep her from killing herself but, as time moved on, I genuinely fell for her. But now, after all this shit, I've had one constant thought running through my head. After the break up, it came to me but I didn't want to be the kind of asshole who would be able to say it. But, you know what, I AM that kind of asshole. In fact, the world's full of people like me.

I SHOULD HAVE LET YOU DIE

That's right. Judge me how you will. But, remember this: When you extinguish the light in somebody's heart, you've created more darkness to cover the world with. Don't go around breaking hearts or hurting people on a whim. There is so little beauty left in humanity.

If you find a good person, for God's sake; I beg of you; take care of them! Don't let them become like me, broken and twisted. Keep them pure! Let their love grow and spread! Let it take root and form a deep foundation in your life as well as the lives of others.

There is so little beauty left in humanity, after all...
UPDATE:

And the winner is :icontakkunotori:  takkunotori.deviantart.com/art…
!!!

I don't normally consume alcohol so the 1/8th of Redd's Apple Ale is really messing with my head. Seems to have improved my grammar though, go figure.

Anyways dudes and dudettes, my birthday's coming up in the next 2 days and I think I'm gonna get myself a tattoo. Veterans of harsh wars return home with battle scars; tourists with fanciful souvenirs. Me, yeah, thinkin' of gettin' some ink. Some say love is the ultimate battlefield except when ya go down, you're s'posed to get back up.

So anayways, I need a design. Something cool that screams "Zerro". I'll pay big bucks to whoever comes up with the best one. Let's say... $70. If it's REALLY good, I'll tack on a bit more. The only requirements are, it has to be blue and it has to have a knife plunging right through a heart-shaped object with the words "Zerro Love" somewhere. Also, no feminine stuff. I'm not sexist, but this IS going on a high-visibility part my body and I don't want to give off the wrong message to people.

I'll choose the best design a week from now.

Oh! Just so you guys don't ignore this, anyone who admits a design WILL receive something from me, whether it be PMs or cash. Check's in the mail on that one.

So... Yeah, I'm gonna see if I can drink half of this bottle and not puke. My liver's gonna flame my butt in the morning...
The woman who I devoted nearly two years of my life to suddenly broke up with me two days ago. She says she can't take anymore "fighting", which is strange considering we've never really butted heads about anything.

I was going to give her the world. Anything she wanted. A hiuse, car, all my free time, my body and mind. I had plans- no- WE had plans to get married and the whole nine yards, but when I asked her why she was leaving me, she at girst said it was because of the passive aggressive way I shut myself in whenever I get upset with her, which is more rarer than not; maybe once or twice within two months, never anything too serious and it's usually resolved the next day with hugs and kisses.

i honestly have no idea where this coming from. She has ltold me herself that it's not my habits or personality. I mean, I seriously devoted myself to her and this relationship. She was suppoed to be the one I spent the rest of my life with. All I wanted to do was love her. Hell, we didn't even have to be onne the same continent! I'm in fucking Japan for God's sake! I can't be smothering her, cause I've always maybe it clear that if she needed space I would have not hang-ups about giving it to her as long as she still loved me.

"I don't love you anymore"

Who the fuck says that to someone?? Why?! What the hell did I do that was so inconceviably horrible that I need to be left alone??

i have been lotal to a fault! In all the countries I've been to, I could have done a number of this to any woman who was willing (which there WERE a few; I workout after all and I ain't too bad to look at, I guess) and she'd NEVER know. But did I do that? Hell no!

Whenever she wanted something that I could het her, it was her's. no matter what it costs or what I'd have to go without, she'd get what she desired.I'd even ASK her if she wanted anything. Offering of myself to her, sometimes even BEGGING her to let me get her something. That's just the way I am. I love providing for the people I love. Hell, that was one of the reasons she "fell in love" with me in the first place: my "big heart"

I took leave to see her as often as I could. I really did. The military is tough on that, but I thought we were going strong on that front. We never had any disagreements while we were face-to-face. Ever. Those were the best times of my life. We'd sleep together (not in the sexual way; we were both waiting till marriage) and I'd hold her in my arms. I was a complete being then. I can't hold the tears back when I think about those times.

Why would she leave me? I've never hit her or called her a bad name (unless you count "adorkable", which I was using as a pet name), I would literally stop whatever I was doing to talk to her if I sensed she wanted me to. I talked to her at least twice a day: during my lunch hour and during the evening (which is her morning).

i took everything that I learned from other people's relationships and did everything in my power to do right by thids girl. And she tells me she doesn't love me anymore.

you know what the shittiest thing about this is? Even after I begged her to stay and promised to change to fit whatever she wanted, she still wouldn't budge. During the whole two-year span of our relationship, she has never shown more backbone than when she told me goodbye. She didn't seem the least bit remorseful as she ripped out my heart either.

She was the center point of my life yet we ended up breaking up over Skype messages.

I called her a fucking bitch once she turned off her account to me. I know it was wrong and she won't give to shits about it except to throw it in my fave later, "See? THAT'S the reason I broke up with you!" That's such horse shit. An emotional outburst AFTER you tear my heart into pieces is NOT the reason you ended a good thing. I never called her anything remotely close to that while we were together and, if this hurt so damn bad, I wouldn't have said it. I know it was wrong. She won't care anyway.

I have over 13k saved up for the life we were soppused to have together. I put her in my will, in case the worst happened. The people at the legal office warned me but I was like, "nah you guys might know SOME couples, but we're different."

Before I left for Japan, she said we should get rings. And you know know what I did? Burst open my savings like a kid buying candy and dropped $900 on a pair if matching his/her bands. I've worn my to sleep everyday since. I took it off only when going to the gym.

Commitment, Loyalty, Generosity, Caring, I'd like to think I was gentle and kind too. Pretty sure I was. No, DAMN sure I was. I'd always tell her how pretty she was and how even though she doesn't have DDs (I used to be a breast man, ya know) I didn't care because "you don't love some because they're beautiful, they're beautiful because you love them."

Where did I go wrong? I was RAISED by three females and learned as much from them as I could. Was a gentleman, paid for every meal. Was sincere when I spoke to her. Apologized whenever I felt that I had done something wrong (which turns out half the time she'd be like, "Sorry for what?").

I'd call her "Love" as in, "Good morning, love~"

What the fuck did I do wrong?? I ever offered to change! I'm 25 years old and still willing to do what it takes to keep the relationship going! And she KNOWS that! I've never denied her unless I absolutely couldn't do it.

What did I do wrong? Why did she suddenly stop loving me? I'm the same person from two years ago except even more caring.

I know this sounds like bullshit, but I SERIOUSLY have no idea when and what went wrong. All the reasons she gave me were:

1. The passive aggressive way I respond when she's upset me
2. I make her feel "small"

i told her that I would open up and stop being passive aggressive but apparently she does want to wait for me. After nearly two years of my waiting for her, this is what I get. I'm a fucking mess of emotions right now. I wish I had never met her.

That asshole who said "Tis better to have loved and list rather to have not loved at all" should have his balls cut off and force-fed to him.

I hate life right now...


I'm sorry for the shitty grammar... Just... If that's all you got from reading this, Unwatch me immediately.
Moana (Adult) by Zerro
Moana (Adult)
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I only commission artists that fit my personal interests.

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Zerro = Zero + Rebirth. A long time ago, I felt like a nobody. A loser, a chump, a... zero. I was a sad, pitiful excuse for a man, a fact which I reveled in for the better part of the beginning of my life. I don't exactly remember how it happened but, I do remembr how it felt when I suddenly realized that my exsistence wasn't just that of a failure. I felt like I had been pardoned after commiting a murder. It was my rebirth.

From then on I decided that, in my personal life as well as that of the world wide web, I would have a name which reflected my past mistakes and deeds while, at the same time, conveying my newfound glory. Thus the moniker Zerro was born. Troubled past combined with unbridled future.

Later on, I joined the United States Navy and have served proudly ever since. I reemlisted July 24th.

I try to do things that I think wil make people happy. That doesn't make me a good person. Empathy is a nice quality for a person to have, but it isn't always a determining factor for someone intentions. Contrary to popular belief, you can't always judge a person purely on their actions.

Current Residence: USS Abraham Lincoln (CVN-72)
deviantWEAR sizing preference: Medium to Large
Print preference: Semi-gloss
Favourite genre of music: Alternative, Smooth Jazz, J-pop
Favourite photographer: Myself
Favourite style of art: Literature (Cause I can't really draw)
Operating System: Windows XP
MP3 player of choice: iPhone 4S
Shell of choice: Triple-Plated Titanium
Skin of choice: Active Camo
Favourite cartoon character: Huey, Heathcliff the Cat
Personal Quote: "Stranger things have happened..."

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EDIT: Fore Warning Oi, this is just another journal about me and my ex. If you don't give a fuck about me (it's understandable if you don't so don't feel that you HAVE to read this now that I've called attention to the fact), or if you're bored with a 26 year-old griping over high school grade issues, please ignore this one.




My ex decided to contact me today after a month of silence. This marks the second time she's done this. I can't be certain, but I think this is some twisted, fucked up game she's playing with me. A month is just long enough for someone to start getting over something, you know? Like, if you saw a murder, you'd be traumatized for weeks, maybe the rest of your life but, the initial shock would probably dissolve within 30 days. Or maybe I'm just grasping at straws so as to explain the particular way I'm feeling. I'm not a psychologist, after all.

Anyways, I've still been a sloppy mess about everything. I don't get joy out of life anymore. I only see the dull gray of the world. The moments of happiness I have now are fewer and farther between and, because of such, I often over-exaggerate them to make them last a bit longer. I'm constantly having to find a way to distract myself too. Every time I have a spare moment with no project or task, I end up thinking about... well, her. Then I get depressed again.

i'm pretty pathetic, right?

I don't know if it how I was raised or if I just wanted to believe the fantasies and myths about love, but regardless, I really gave my whole heart to that girl. *sigh* I'm not very mature when it comes to things like this. "When you say you love someone, you mean it." Pretty naive thinking. The word love doesn't really have a place in this world; not in its original content anyways.

So, anyways, back to the topic on hand. So after a month of nothing, she sends me a Skype message. "mmm hello"

I cannot expressed how very angry that made me. I gave this girl my love, hopes, dreams and trust and here she is, after not a word for a month, she so casually greets me. As if I'm a damn toy that can be played with then stuffed away somewhere, out of the way for a month till she gets bored and decides to play with me once again.

Thinking back, maybe I overreacted to all of this, but honestly I'm just tired of all this. I'd have to imagine that my ex isn't completely oblivious to the way I feel about her; I've told her, oh, so many times, after all. So, every if she only had an inkling of the emotional struggle she puts me through, she would have to be able to surmise that playing this little of "Red Light, Green Light" is really screwin' with me. And if she knows that, then she MUST be doing this intentionally to hurt me. There's no other logical explanation for it. SHE broke up with ME, after all. After all the begging and pleading. If there was more I could have done to get her to reconsider, I don't know of it.

So, this brings me to my question: What the fuck does this sadistic bitch want with me?!

I'm so... tired. She's evil. Made me feel something, made me depend on her then took it all away. And now, when I start to see the light at the end of the tunnel, she pulls me back into the darkness. And for what? Just to leave me alone in my misery till I finally start to recover again?


You know, when I first met her, my ex said she was contemplating suicide. So, I did what I thought any other decent man would do, I decided to love her. At first, yes, it was to keep her from killing herself but, as time moved on, I genuinely fell for her. But now, after all this shit, I've had one constant thought running through my head. After the break up, it came to me but I didn't want to be the kind of asshole who would be able to say it. But, you know what, I AM that kind of asshole. In fact, the world's full of people like me.

I SHOULD HAVE LET YOU DIE

That's right. Judge me how you will. But, remember this: When you extinguish the light in somebody's heart, you've created more darkness to cover the world with. Don't go around breaking hearts or hurting people on a whim. There is so little beauty left in humanity.

If you find a good person, for God's sake; I beg of you; take care of them! Don't let them become like me, broken and twisted. Keep them pure! Let their love grow and spread! Let it take root and form a deep foundation in your life as well as the lives of others.

There is so little beauty left in humanity, after all...

Okay, so I have an AMAZING chance to get a commission from :Ryuuka-Nagare:! Which of my OCs should I select for this prestigious honor? 

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14 deviants said Umbra Umbra by Zerro
18%
10 deviants said Adult Suriyawong Suriyawong (Adult) by Zerro
16%
9 deviants said Princess Cosette Princess Cosette by Zerro
14%
8 deviants said The Goddess The Chains of Virtue and Order by Zerro
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7 deviants said Adult Moana Moana (Debutant) by ZerroMoana (Adult) by Zerro
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4 deviants said Kaciana Kaciana (Adult) by Zerro
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2 deviants said Zerro Amidst The Fire And The Fear... by Zerro
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1 deviant said Sylvie Slammer COM - Sylvie by Wingsie
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1 deviant said Valencia Valencia by Zerro
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No deviants said One of the many OCs that I didn't mention. (Leave a comment please)

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:iconnabilaeh:
NabilaEH Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2015  Student Traditional Artist
I love moana *^*)
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SleepyBirdie Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2015
*Crying bcoz ur so nice to me*
Ahhhhnn thanks a million!! ♥
*bows a thousand times
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Zerro Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2015
Hey Mel~!

How ya been doin~?
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zeldacw Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2014  Professional Artist
Thank you so much for giving me premium membership TuT
It's a Colorful World - Hug by zeldacw  
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Zerro Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2014
No prob
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bunpurr Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2014
Thanks for the sub Zerro!
I hope you are doing well!
Merry Christmas and a happy new year!
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Cottoneeh Featured By Owner Edited Dec 15, 2014
Hi there :)
Just wanted to know how you have been :D
Since I will be away for a 2-3 week holiday from next week on.
I hope you can celebrate a wonderful christmas and new year ♥
I wanted to draw your oc for christmas because she is so awesome, but I just have no time //cries a river
I hope your days are more stressless
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Zerro Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2014
Hey there!

Thanks for checking up on me, I appreciate the attention. To be honest, I'm still emotionally unstable. About 21 days ago (according to Skype) my Ex told me she wanted tp get back together. However, because she had left my to wallow in pain for 3 weeks while continuing to tell me how much happier she was without me, I was so angry and heartbroken, I snapped and said some things that I didn't mean. I didn't say that I didn't want to get back together though. I asked for some time so that I could discuss this with wiser people than myself.

2 days later, she sends me an email saying that she was leaving my life forever.

The saddest, shittiest part of all this is: I still have no idea what I did that was so terribly bad that caused her to break it all up...
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Cottoneeh Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2014
Of course ♥

Wow ;w; Oh man I am so sorry for you.
You do NOT deserve this!

But as you see, her will to be back together with you wasn't even strong.
If it was, she would have waited for your decision, I tell you.
So I really don't know what her intentions were, and I don't want to judge,
but if she really wanted to be together again, she wouldn't have left you that easily again.

I guess you're just the relationship type that I am.
I believe in an old fashioned relationship and don't like to switch partners easily.
If I get to trust someone, I give them all my heart and love and do whatever I can to make them happy.
But I guess that's the point which can destroy us very easily. I feel with you, I experienced similar things, too.
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Zerro Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2014
It's good to know that other people feel the same, especially because you're a woman. This whole situation has put a bad taste in my mouth for females and I was starting to believe what a lot of my friends were saying: "Women are only good for one thing and nothing else." "Women lie and cheat more than men", things like that.

I'm sorry to hear that you've had to experience this sort of thing too. People should mean it when they say they love another person.
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